I don’t want to be viral anymore

Si
Si
Jul 28, 2017 · 3 min read

Why, you ask? Because I am human, not a virus.

Like anyone my age, I too thought being viral was the best thing that could happen to me ever. But not anymore.

Hear me out, will you. This is not a standard case of sour grapes and the fox. No, this is so far from that. This is the story of finally realizing what matters, and what doesn’t.

I love writing, I absolutely do. This is my way of expressing myself. I love being honest, completely naked(emotionally), and just putting it all out. This is my way of healing, strengthening, building myself. I do it simply because I feel great. For example, my last piece about my struggles with body image :

I wrote it all in one go. It was like finally finding that friend you could share everything with and rambling out all that you had stuffed inside yourself for so long. It felt great, relieving. And I would love to do that again and again. Just putting down what I feel, honestly, my thoughts, and opinions. Their are people who liked it, who read it, and who related to it. And I am glad they did. But even if no one would, do I stop writing?

Hell no. I write because writing is my therapy. I don’t write because I get paid for it, I have a full time job for that. I write for me, and me only. I write because I don’t know how not to. I don’t want to follow a style, or write about the 10 things to blah blah. I don’t want to write for stats and reads and recommends. I want to write for love, for honesty, for wit, for pain, for loss. I want to write for all those humanly emotions I give birth to and kill every day. I want to write for me, and as happy as it makes me that someone likes what I wrote, I still want my primary drive to be to write just for me.

I see viral stories everyday, and for a long time, I wondered, you know I can come up with something like that too. But writing is the one thing which I do without any incentive. It is like drinking water, you would do it if someone pays you, but you would do it even if no one does. Because you cannot stand the thirst.

Again, don’t think that I am trying to belittle people who go viral. Some of them have put a lot of effort into it, and they continue doing so. It doesn’t really happen overnight, as we might think. And I applaud and congratulate them. But it ain’t necessary that to be proven good I need to go viral. I don’t give anyone out there the liberty to decide how good or bad a writer I am. You can have your opinions, sure. You can share them with me too, but please don’t expect I will agree with them. I am a writer, not good or bad, just another writer, just another girl.

And no, I don’t want to go viral. I just want to continue being true to me.

-Just another girl

Si

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Si

Nothing special, Just another girl.

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