Yep, it went okay…. I guess

And the story goes like this.

I went to see Dr. Waring better prepared than ever. Things went okay in the first part and then came the exciting part where I needed to ask her opinion about me applying for EdD next year. She said with a rising intonation,

“You can apply. But I don’t think you’re a good fit here.”

I thought I would be shocked and perhaps cry but I didn’t. It was the feeling of relief I would say. I somehow expected her to say no deep down. At the same time, I thought there was a slight chance for her to say yes. But it came out like this and I was pretty happy with it. Not as upset as I thought.

After that, I met Diane in the cafe. She really helped me getting my weird feelings out and comforted me by talking and considering other possibilities in education and life in general we can all do besides pursuing PhD. I felt much better.

Then, going down to the cafeteria to grab some dinner, I met Heidi. She has always been the BEST and will always be this way. She knew exactly what I just gone through. “She hardly excepts non-native speakers as EdD students in the past few years.” We talked a lot about things in hindsight and many other about the future. I just learned that she will get married in a month, June 12–14. Even though she didn’t seem excited (yet), I’m sure she will be, especially when the day is approaching. I can’t be any happier for her.

I needed to give a presentation for the other class. I went baaaaaaaad! I blamed on my continuing anxiety up until now. BADDDDDDD…..

Tomorrow is a brand new day and I’m sure it’s never going to be the same but it’ll be a MUCH BETTER kinda day.

02.28.2016 2.23 am