Moving on from the past is not the easiest thing to do. It’s even harder if you have experienced a few bumps on the road. Life becomes hard if you are trying to get by with your normal routine and you are not at 100%. Everyone has at one time thought life is not fair, living with an illness that doctors don’t seem to recognize can be much worse. It gets even worse if you don’t know that you are suffering from such a disease. That was the life I had gotten used to for more than 5 years, today am healthy and I feel grateful to God and everyone who did what they could to assist.
I hear people say life is short but when you are not healthy life can be quite long, a day in the ICU seems like an unending misery. Having spent more than a week in the ICU was probably the longest part of my life the irony being I haven’t lived half my life just yet. I have come to love a quote by Nicole Reed,
Sometimes the bad things that happen in our lives put us directly on the path to the most wonderful things that will ever happen to us.
Yes life can be tough but it is all up to us to keep the good memories, forget the bad ones and learn from the mistakes we have made. It is hard to imagine that in the midst of your worst days you can have memorable days.
I met some of the best people and I got to view life differently. I made some new friends and I also lost some old friends who I thought were dear to me.
If I would be given the chance to do everything all over again would I do anything differently? That’s a question I ask myself so many times. I may not have a clear answer but vividly I think there is very little I can change about my past. On the other hand there is so much I can change about the future, I have made numerous decisions in the past and at some point I have been disappointed but the lesson I draw from all these is:
To do everything with a good heart and expect nothing in return and that way I will rarely get disappointed.