Last night was harder than most nights lately, and it might’ve been because there was one final draw. I wish it didn’t have to be this way, but clearly, I don’t trust many. If you know me as a person, closely, and I mean know me know me know me… you know I’m the last person on this earth that would want to make someone feel unappreciated or low. Well actually, not even the last person. I would never want to make someone feel that way.
I promise I don’t invest my energy, time, breathe, or love on just anyone. I put in so much time, effort, and love into certain people and then they end up being the opposite of what I thought for so long. I don’t know if it’s because they’re upset with me and I’m just not realizing it hard enough… or if it’s because they’re hurting too?
I can genuinely say that if you’ve ever crossed my path, even one bit, within my life so far; I have meant everything I said and been nothing but real to whom ever you may be.
It’s been hard to trust anyone lately and I feel like it’s to the point where I can’t trust a soul and I don’t want it to be like that, but it is. I believe it will get better for myself and who ever else feels this way. It could just take time getting to know the deeper parts of life better and experiencing more day by day.
I want to release nothing but positive energy and if you feel the same way or anything along the lines of what I said, just know, you aren’t alone…