I find it odd that so much value and happiness is put on the back of another person. I think you should focus on yourself, be mindful, be cognizant and respectful and especially be a better listener. You will find that those strength and self realization are what makes you more confident and happy. This intern will lead to a better lifestyle, more sympathetic thoughts and a positive outlook on life itself. Optimism is your only savior to true living and happiness. Just give it a try.