For Those Who Love Me Next

I want you to love me in public.

I don’t want you to hide me with the excuse that you’re just “private.”

I don’t want to have to remind myself that you care, I want to hear it from your lips.

I want you to know that my tears are not signs of weakness and that my emotional process does not have to match yours.

I want you to know that what I do for you, I would do for anyone who has managed to work themselves into my heart.

You are not my world.

I am my world and you are a long term visitor.

I don’t want you to mistake my kindness for obsession.

I don’t want you to mistake my love for you as your ownership of me.

I don’t want you to assume that my words mean anything other than what they are.

I don’t want to sacrifice parts of myself to make parts of you shine.

I don’t want to be a storage for your unresolved emotions.

I don’t want to be compared to anyone who came before.

I don’t want to hear the words “Someone told me that you…”

I don’t want to hear about your feelings or lack of feelings for me from someone else.

I don’t want to wonder.


I want you to love me in public.

I want us to exist in the same world together, not in isolation from everyone else.

I want you to think about how your actions affect me.

I want you to talk to me, not assume that I already know.

I want you to want me not need me.

I want to want you not need you.

I want you to be honest if you’re love for me is not what it once was.


I want you to love me in public.

I need you to be present.

I need you to be patient with both of us.

I need you to work on you while I work on me.

I need you to show interest in what makes me happy and I’ll do the same for you.

I need you to understand that I will not set myself on fire to keep you warm.

I need you to understand that I have given so much before and it will take time for me to give to you.

I need you to understand that I am human and I cannot be something I’m not.

I need you to allow me to fuck up.

I need you to allow me to be forgiven.

I need you to show me that I can trust you.


I want you to love me in public.

I want you to know that these words are not for you but a reminder that what I want is what I deserve.