Read This When I Forgive You
Silent hallways -filled with church mouses
Bruised knees from fervent prayer
Earth Spirit please bless me
With the divine and holy water
To cleanse all traces of my resentment
Towards myself
I bled and stayed inside for 7 days
Luna appearing on the 28th day
Of each cycle
Then,there it began — the cyclical pattern of
Hamsters running on the wheels
No end nor beginning
The Alpha and the Omega
Push and pull, polar opposites
That couldn’t resist each other
Premonitions of the Madonna
Hail Mary’s held between my fingers
Bellowing for the ancestors to guide me
To my true healing where tulips bloom
And Birds of Paradise fly
Sitting united with my beloved
Never remembering that they have long by
To the other side
Holding the joys of yesterday in my hands
When they were still alive
Find within me the light of my existence
And persuade me daily to find reasons
to continue to exist
And constantly bare this pain
So, let the mirrors reflect my beauty
That I try so hard to find
And believe I don’t deserve
