Hard times became great stories at the end

There are days in life when you feel like your are doing everything wrong, and that no matter how much you try, there’s always a negative feedback.

For the last month I’ve been in a position where all I heard about my advisors was that my work was not correct or that I needed to improve in almost everything. I know probably it might didn’t seem like something to feel bad or to worry about, but when you’re the leader and everyone is looking up to you, they are counting on your knowledge and you suddenly realize that you’re not doing it correctly, is hard to deal with that reality.

It took me not only time but emotional intelligence, strength, resilience and matureness to accept really hard critics and abstract the most important knowledges that could help my team and me to deliver the imposible.

I confessed I cried because of how I felt about my own knowledge, there were even some times I stopped believing I was capable to do it, but then there were others where I stood up and told myself I was going to do my best and that giving my 150% of effort would be enough.

I was not competing with anyone but myself, I was fighting against time, knowledge and my own personal demons. I tried to understand and to truly believe that even though people didn’t communicate or express their feedbacks the way I expected, my job was to analyze the most important information and apply it in the right way so that this time I could make things right.

The truth is that I finally did it, today I presented my work after comments, feedbacks and a lot of time spent in research, creativity and of course brain storms with my team. Just a couple of hours ago, I heard the best words I could’ve heard… GREAT JOB.

I find amazing how something that simple could make you feel so happy, but it’s because of how PROUD I was of myself to never gave up and instead of denying the truth about my mistakes I actually listened carefully and made something about it.

This experience taught me more than I could ever imagined, because I did not only learned about a particular scientific topic, but the most important of all, I learned about how not to give up when life turns harder and how to deal emotionally with what makes you feel uncomfortable.

I will never thank these two people enough for teaching me unconsciously more about perseverance, tolerance, emotional intelligence and personal growth than anyone else.

Now I am ready, and I am sure that everyday that passes through I became wiser and more humble, because there’s always something else to know about life and of course about myself.