We do tend to do this. I know I have done it, and still do sometimes. I’ve often asked why this is. I keep coming to the fact that there is a need to understand why certain things happened the way they did. Also, that there is an impossible wish to change how certain things happened. So, we recreate and continue to analyze the moments and create imagined moments that might have changed the outcome of the painful situation. I’m still trying to understand and make sense of things. Writing helps; it helps to have everything laid out, when you can stomach to look at it and hold firmly through the triggers that looking at everything can undoubtedly bring.