Mariposa

“Because the day I saw him, the day I loved him.”
One fine day, I found a masterpiece. His name is Selaphiel Angelo but his friends usually call him Phiel.
He is my senior at my school. The first impression when I saw him was “I must have saved a country in
my past life to be able to meet such a boy as charming as he is!?”
Let me tell you how perfect he is, just in case you want to know more about him;
He is a basketball player, he is quite tall, and so friendly. We also have something in common: both of us
love art! I love art and looking at his face (even from the distance) is like seeing an amazing art piece in
the museum. Mesmerizing!
I am lucky enough to be chosen as the member of student organization at my school so that I can spend
more time to meet him and admire him secretly. For your information, no one knows that I have a crush
on him, not even my bestfriends. I hope they don’t see me whenever I meet him. I feel like there are many
butterflies tickle my stomach. I can’t do anything nor say any words because I am worried I will
embarrass myself in front of him.
Seconds become minutes. Minutes become hours, hours become days, and days become months. Time
flies but my feeling for him is unchanged.
The more I know about him, the more I am amazed by him. Well, maybe Phiel is just an ordinary boy for
other people, but for me he is “extraordinary”.
I never have the guts to talk to him. I am too shy to start the conversation so I just wait for the miracle.
Unfortunately, he never asks me anything. Even though we’re in the same organization, not even once
does he chat me or talk to me in person. We’re totally like two strangers. At this point, I think it’s possible
that he doesn’t even know my name. Pathetic!
Today I knew that he will join a basketball competition with one of my seniors. They look so cute
together and have been known each other for years. They are good at playing basketball and most of the
students at my school, including me, ship them as a couple. It sounds weird but I don’t mind seeing him
Dear Phiel,
I might not be that girl,
I might not be as awesome as her,
I might not be as tall as she is,
But, you know what?
I still admire you from miles away, and will always do.
I always smile everytime I see the dimples on your cheeks,
I am always here for you no matter what.
Phiel,
Now I’m not sure what I scare more.
that you will never start loving me.
or that I will never stop loving you.
It hurts but I don’t really know why I’m still hoping.
From the pieces of my broken heart,
Mariposa.
