This is not home...
Everybody keeps talking about home. Till date I’ve come across numerous one liners about what home must be and I thought that they were crazy good lines and did sufficiently define home.
Well, honestly I never knew I had a home unless I ended up not having one.
Now, I think I completely understand what it is. Somethings you have to lose to know what it is or what its importance is.
Can’t say if I would have preferred to have a home over understanding what home actually is.
Some say home is where mother is, some say home is where your heart is and what not. Some might even say, home is where you wanna be. I don't wanna be home anymore!
All might be true but of what I have come to learn after missing one, can never be defined in one line or paragraph or a book.
Altho it can always be said what is not home. Home is not about space. Home is definitely not about love of an individual for an individual. Home is not about finance or provinding needs of each others. I could go on. But I can never dare to give a defination to it.
May be I will never find a home again CZ home happens to lucky few and more luckier ones get to have it their entire life.
I’ve seen a home being built and then shattered and power of it so strong that it might not last for more than a generation but the essence of it still soothes. You feel like visiting it again. Being there. But it isn’t about a particular place or town or country anyway.
I miss home, really. I wish I had a choice but I do not have one. Every good thing comes to an end. Now when I think I of building one, I am well aware with the fact that it is going to take my entire life.
Also I am not generous. What is the point of building something which isn’t going to benifit either you or a mass.
