Why did you do what you did to me?
The question “Wasn’t I enough” might sound very cliché but that is the first thing you are bound to ask yourself when you let the harsh reality sink in.Even if I wasn’t goid enough for you;did you not respect me enough to break off what we had before you went behind my back?You not only broke my trust on you but also instilled in me a sense of doubt on whatever relationships that I will come across for the rest of my life..Oh!!and Congratulations are in order for you-You successfully made me loose faith in myself..The pain of your infidelity will eventually fade away but the insecurity in me will stay forever,drilling a hole through my conscience….’I wasn’t enough for someone to stay with me….to respect me..to love me like i did..’
The last thing that you told me was “I’m sorry..I did not mean to..It just happened..”.Trust me if I wasn’t so humiliated and heartbroken I would have laughed on your face…..You are not sorry that you cheated.You are sorry that you were caught.
If you ‘loved' me as you say you do you wouldn’t have even thought about doing it.Y ou wouldn’t have looked at her the way you looked at me….
BUT YOU DID.
….And that is what changed everything.The way I looked at the world,the way I looked at the people who care about me and more importantly the way I looked at me.
People often say “Thank you for doing this to me.You made me better and stronger and ready to face the world…”
But I am not any of the above mentioned things….I sound very weak and pathetic I know….and maybe time will heal the wounds you left behind….
But i just want to say-
'THANK YOU FOR giving me the OPPURTUNITY to CHANGE MYSELF from THE WEAK PERSON that I was when I made the MISTAKE OF FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU to the INSECURE but FEARLESS WOMAN I am NOW.”
And most of all “May the guilt be forever with you and within you.”