I have been in this club since December 7, 2016. Seems not like a long time to many people, but my heart has been aching since then. I never wished or thought I would join this club. One shitty thing that was in the back of my mind the entire year of 2016 was that my father was going to die. My dad was only 46 years old and I am only 17. My dad’s worst fear was that he was not going to be able to walk me down the isle at my wedding.