Unattached

Oct 17, 2013

Recently I have been feeling fairly disconnected with myself. One could explain it as not being grounded, Stuck in a place far from your body. Lately I have been unintentionally been doing a lot of day dreaming. Reliving the past, dreaming of the future. A lot of anywhere but in the NOW.

Now that TomorrowWorld is over; I can say I’m finally back to reality.. but the first couple weeks back were rough. Not in the sense where I went through major withdrawals from the event like I did with EDC LV. But more in the my mind wasn’t ready to be back in reality. I lost my car keys which created lots of stress and dug a bit of a hole in my wallet. Then just recently I dropped a laptop that fell 6 ft to it’s technological death. Then I find out that I had gone over on my phone bill by not just a little bit. But by A lot. That dug an even bigger hole in my wallet. I was stressed out. I’m still worried how I will do financially for my 48 day vacation… but in the end after every thing finally ended I was still able to put a smile on my face. Yes I had anger, Yes I was frustrated, but I seen it through. I always keep in mind that life’s hardships would not be thrown at me if I couldn’t handle them. Seeing the good when the bad hit is really tough. You have to remind yourself “What’s the reason behind this happening?” “What have I learned?” “What could I change next time so this doesn’t happen again?” You have to realize that things happen for a reason. Maybe because I had to fork out extra cash for things that happen now that I may not be able to do all that I want to while I’m in Europe but maybe I’ll experience other things because of it. Couch surfing more then expected. Maybe having to store my snowboard somewhere when I run out of cash to snowboard with. Which in turn lets me see more of Europe that I wouldn’t have other wise seen. Who knows.

Life will throw lemons at you… How hard can you throw them back?

Stay true..