KEEP GOING & WAKE UP

If you are complaining you aren’t doing enough — Gary Vaynerchuk has literally changed everything for me and now seriously taking his knowledge (think DIRT at about 80% + #thankyoueconomy) it’s a slow grind but since going that more hard + serious and without any fucking around truly in the dirt I’ve already seen MASSIVE movement and slowly building up daily — by far there’s a lot more to be done but I’ve never felt more aligned and ready to go on.

It’s easy to whine or bitch or moan just like it’s easy to give up or quit but rather than do any of that get real.

At almost 31 (that’s happening May 27) It’s easy to look back at my 20’s and curse myself for truly fucking around with a lot of crap and with my less aware naive self fall prey to a lot of the bullshit and a multitude of things. However, I wouldn’t be here right now still breathing still going and hell being that much more resilient and strong and driven if it weren’t for the lessons from my 20's.

The thing is that when you don’t have a lot of supporters or people that believe you will do it — you go even harder to prove everyone wrong.

I know many of you that “know me” think I work really fucking hard* and that yes I am resilient and never give up despite all the odds/fails/a slew of shit but I have truly taken everything to the next level in terms of “work.” It’s not easy and I’m by no means a perfect example, wealthy person or someone that has all the answers but I’d rather be in a place of non stop movement and work and be truly doing everything with heart/integrity — which is why I can’t pull the “get rich quick” schemes / do things that don’t feel true to myself. I am in the dirt and my main focus is just building and truly connecting and growing my following with as much love and care for the humans that decide to come my way. No joke no fake shit no sugar coating. Just one woman that is here to serve deliver and make people feel like they really do matter. Because at the end of the day all we have is ourselves and I want you to find your own version of happiness. My goal is always just to make someone feel a smidge better, even if it is just in that moment or that one interaction. I’m classified as what is known as sensitive and an empath — I feel for everyone and everything.

Now, several years into this journey of life, being an independent adult and somehow never ever giving up…I’m uncovering how I can use my sensitivity and empathic being as one of my greatest gifts. When we think sensitive we usually will think weak, doormat, emotional, taken advantage of…I know I’ve always seen it as a weakness. When you combine sensitive with also being an empath — you just feel so much! You have so much love, compassion for the world yet you are also so easily impacted by the tiniest things. A simple message can send us into a tizzy of what was meant by every word, and same in conversation or body language.

It’s been empowering for me to learn how to embrace these pieces of who I am and learn how I can truly see this as a gift and to be able to turn it around.

Just like connecting to our intuition, our internal wisdom — the feelings or hunch that we get around any myriad of things. From a friendship, to a client, to a possible mentor or opportunity right down to ourselves doing certain things. Learning how to truly listen to these hunches is when things started to crack open and I began to truly make better choices and decisions. Because we all know the red flags, the gut feelings. They usually never lie.

I’ve spent most of my life attempting to always go with the flow, fit in, be liked, do what is expected from countless people and societal norms. The thing is though that it can be very draining and near impossible. Especially when at our core being we know that we are different. We must learn how to be ourselves fully and learn how to use our unique beings and our gifts in a way that feels like it is truly us and it is our soul that is shining out and through our physical being. With all of our encounters and relationships. We will never be liked or understood by everyone. Believing that is going to only crush us and make us feel all the more alone.

I believe that our intuition can be one of our greatest tools that we all are born with.

It’s up to us if we choose to make use of it and trust it. When we can learn to truly hear and live our lives from a place of our inner wisdom is when things start clicking.

I spent many years of my life receiving the intuitive hits, the slight nudges, whispers of my soul and my heart or the red flags in every possible situation — business, romance, friendships, etc. Yet, more often than not I would not listen to them. I would ignore them and time after time things would unravel where yes 95% of the time my initial intuitive hunch was spot on. However, I do not regret any of those scenarios. Now I know to never doubt my intuition because mine has taught me that she is very accurate. We have to learn how we can learn to listen and trust our own individual intuition. Just like as I am now learning in this present moment how to truly utilize my sensitive and empath soul as a gift and not as something that is a weakness.

After many awkward years of me feeling different and trying to “fit in” I choose to just be me. It’s not for everyone. I literally feel at times like a super human. I just keep going — even after what many would never have survived, done, tried. At times I laugh when people wonder why I haven’t “quit” yet — because I can’t. I won’t be able to live without constantly doing learning growing and going. It is truly my mission to be of service to the world and leave the world better than I found it.

You can let a few failures crush you or you can learn to get back on the horse and keep going. I always keep going and I forever pivot and use my failures as fuel and life has my greatest teacher. There’s a lot more to my long story but if you take anything from this — keep going and wake up.