Yep, that’s the realization I came to recently.
Lately, I went through a period where I was pretty down on myself.
“What’s wrong with you?” “Why can’t you get it together?” “You’re smarter than this.” “Why are you not farther along?” “Why aren’t you successful yet?”
You know, that kind of stuff. Soul destroying stuff.
Which leads to distraction. After all, who wants to keep banging their head against the wall doing something they suck at while there are so many fake-life Lambo posts to ridicule? And so many awesome Medium posts to read.
Then there’s the next shiny object. As in, well if I can’t make this work, what else is out there? What should I be doing instead?
Okay, how much time did I just take away from my core goal while I investigated those rabbit holes? Time for more self bashing over that diversion.
Then I realized something…
Blogging is hard!
It’s not one job, it’s many jobs all masquerading as one.
I’m the idea person, the researcher, and the interviewer. I’m the writer and the editor.
I’m the art director, the designer, the web developer, the SEO person, and the social media manager.
I’m the analytics manager and the affiliate manager and the marketing manager.
Until there’s money for staff (IF I even ever want to go that route), being good enough at each of those things will have to be, well, good enough. Which is a tough place for a triple-type-A-overachiever to be. (Yeah, you know who you are and you know what I mean.)
It always sounded so easy. Get a domain, WordPress, and some plugins. Start writing and change the world.
Now I know why so many people quit.
Why so many websites are abandoned.
This is not for the weak.
But like those who conquered before me, and with my fellow bloggers beside me, I’ll persevere another day. I’ll take a few baby steps and be grateful for them. I’ll re-find my intention.
I’ll remind myself that one step at a time covers a great distance over time when you keep at it.
It won’t happen fast, but it will be worthwhile. And hopefully, someday, important.
So the next time you get down on yourself because it’s not happening as fast as you’d like, or as fast as “they” said it would, just remember…
You ARE good at this. And you’ll get even better as you go. You’ve got a lot going on here. You’re doing it.
No, it’s not easy. Quitting would be easy.
Instead, connect with others who understand the path. Help those who struggle with their own doubts. Be proud of yourself for the accomplishment of growing and learning and building something.
The destination will be all that much sweeter because of it.