As someone who has gone down the path of “normal job, normal money and normal benefits”, I can say it’s not worth it. At least not for me and I suspect not for you.
All that dissatisfaction you’re felling with your life won’t go away with a “normal” job. In fact, it will probably get worse. Because not only will the other boats keep rising, you won’t even have a boat in the water anymore.
I read a great article last month called What You’re Able to Do VS. What You Were Made to Do. In it, the author, Srinivas Rao recounts some of his conversation with Bob Goff…
Maybe what you’re made to do is far greater than what you’re able to do.
We often have to spend so much time in the space between what we’re able to do and what we’re made to do, it’s tempting to give up. If it’s a dream worth pursuing there will always be moments when you feel like giving up. These moments build character, enable to you to surpass the next obstacle and get to the next milestone.
We have to be willing to spend our time in that space, because discovering what we’re made to do is an iterative process. We don’t just wake up one morning magically blessed with superpowers. This space between point A and B is ripe with uncertainty and infinite possibility.
For the fullest expression of who you are to emerge, you have to go all in. And the space between doing what you’re able to do and what you’re made to do could last for what seems like an eternity. But if you manage to get to what you’re made to do, it will be completely worth it.
So, for me, that itch to give it all up and get a normal job, was, more than anything, an inability to deal with that middle phase.
It was hard. I was burned out. And I quit. I hate that I quit. And believe me, it’s utterly depressing. I wish I could rewind to April 2015 and choose, in that moment, no matter how burned out or stressed I was, to keep going, to keep showing up everyday.
It doesn’t mean that I won’t go back to it. In fact, I’m sure I will. But now, I have to live with the fact that I quit and that burden is way heavier than the pressures I was feeling at the time.
So… ;) If you identify with any of this, don’t give up. You are an amazingly talented podcaster and while I don’t know much about your freelance business, I’m sure you’re great at that too.
So keep doing what you’re doing man. Keep showing up. You will get there. But the only way to know for sure that you’ll get there is if you keep going.