AFRAID. DON’T KNOW. BUT. SO?

AFRAID.

To move forward.

To move away.

To think this discontentedness is ONLY discontentedness and NOT the stirrings of a way forward.

DON’T KNOW.

Where the stirrings emanate from?

My heart?

Sin?

Holy Spirit?

Why I think big dreams are an escape from reality and not into a different or new reality?

Why the stirrings and struggles seem to come hand in hand?

BUT.

The stirrings have been stirring before the struggles.

I know in my heart what I want to do.

I know MANY can be well-served by the vision I have in my heart.

I know if I could do what’s in my heart all-day, every day, then there would be nothing else I’d rather do.

SO.

Now what?