You are defined by what you’re willing to struggle for. Most people aren’t willing to really struggle for anything. They blindly accept what they’re given, and spend their free time disengaging from reality.
Focus On Learning and Creating Rather Than Entertainment and Distraction
Anthony Moore

This is a slap in the face in the best possible way. I am a polymath and I love learning, but too much of my time learning is also escapism. I don’t face challenges when there’s so many other things I can learn to run away from whatever problem I’m trying to avoid.

So I run away from financial problems by digging into the structure of block chains and cryptography. I avoid professional issues by researching rhetoric and practicing art skills. I cope with personal issues by reading anything and everything that is not going to remind me of real life.

I need to avoid less, and engage more. I need to learn, actively, mindfully, and intently: to manage my finances better, and start planning seriously for my future; to learn to be a better teacher, who makes the most of my many and varied skills in the classroom, and to impart those skills to my students; to be a better husband and father by learning to manage my time and attention; how to accomplish the things I want to accomplish; and how to let go of the things I cannot or choose not to accomplish now, so they can stop distracting me and draining my resources.

I’m not giving up escapism entirely: I do love and value good books and other entertainment. I enjoy video games. I love learning random and (mostly) useless things. But I will make a deliberate choice about how much of my time is used in these pursuits. I will ensure the media I consume are genuinely giving me something of value, rather than allowing these things to absorb all of my excess energy and time, like a black hole hovering over my shoulder sucking up every second that is not clearly and intentionally used.