I was here lying on my bed. When I closed my eyes I saw a vivid picture of him. And it scares me. I wanted to shout to cry. I wanted to ask every people around me what happen to us eventhough they can’t give me the right answer. I wanted to run to be drowned by whatever things that I am doing. I wanted scream that I wanted to be with him. But I can’t. All I can do is to close my eyes to pretend that I am strong to smile to the world. I think he was my greatest downfall. Hey just tap me on my shoulder and I’ll be yours. Sometimes I wanted to run in your arms and tell you how scared I am without you by my side. I wanted to tell people how painful it was to be left alone by the people I loved the most. But I can’t. Coz darling everyday I’m dying without knowing how. I want to run as fast as I can to escape this painful thing they called love.