You know it’s always been a little heartbreaking when I meet a woman who says she won’t get involved with anyone who isn’t close to their mother or their family because I am estranged from almost all of my family. It hurts me because they assume that I don’t want to have a closer relationship or that it is my fault that I chose to walk away from a broken family with broken ideals. I was the only boy in an all female house and my mother put all of her hate and fears of men into me and then channeled those same things through my sisters. Over the years I have reconnected with some of my sisters but not my mother and it probably will never happen.
As you say leaving my family saved my life because I no longer felt weighed down and was able to find myself beyond the fears of my mother.