It might have took you great courage to write such poignant piece of your life in words. I am young, and reading something like this makes me wonder what my life would be in my future, because I am bound by rules of society and people who loves me. Since they are in the long run, I am just gonna stay in the present time and enjoy what I have right now. But there are things that “could have been” in my past, but hell, they are gone now and I have learnt something from most of them.
I wonder, whether you received a reply letter from V? I am sure, that letter must have been an emotional roller coaster like this very post. Hope you do well!