Dancing around the subject is like dancing in a bar
You watching me
Me watching you
Me dancing for you
You dancing for me
With many many in between.
Distance apart but oh so close
I could reach out to touch you but
That’s dangerously morose.
Flirting the definition of boundaries and lines
Trying to connect without calling a mime
Standing at the bar
my back to your face
You rush the corner
in a hastily pace
I can not move
By body is numb
Our Eyes connect
And I totally succumb
Our eyes connected and our eyes lingered on
with longing and Yearning as time stood still. It stood still.
It was just us.
I was clinging to another like a support beam but it was just us.
Eye interlocked gazed deep within.
We didn’t say that much.
It actually kinda sucked
but our eyes said it all.
I still care
I still long.
But we both broke the gaze
though I wanted to stay
I was being pulled away by my support beam.
I wanted to run to you
cling to you
but we were numb suspending in air
time stood still second passed with every moment.
I left. You followed and left.
You stayed to watch me or you stayed to out best me.
You waited all night to be in the same space with me.
Why. Why. Why do you still care.
You told them I was fine. You told people I understood
you told everyone I’m okay.
I’m not. I’m destroyed I’m distraught.
I can’t eat I can’t sleep I can’t live.
I run off my energy and run till I’m numb
I run 4–5 miles just to not feel so dumb.
I feel like a fool because I trusted you
I let you in I care
I never feared.
Feel flat on my face and the flat on my back like a tethered ball who just sprung from the mat.
I am free but bound
I and gone and not found
I and dead and badly alive
and I am to sweet like a pie.
Sour and cold.
Numb and old.
Sad and a lone and withered like bones.
I cared for you. You were the love of my life thus far and what can I do. But say I loved you.