You cannot ever say goodbye

I started to wonder whether I should start looking for another job or just sticking with the one I already had.

One of the things that I always wanted but never had, was a nice working team where I could feel at home. And that’s exactly what happened while being in Miami.

I didn’t liked the city, nor the weather, nor the landscaping or anything. Actually, I don’t like Miami or beaches for that matter. But I wanted to give it a try and found a family with people from Cuba, Canada, Mexico, US, Argentina, Venezuela, Jamaica and I don’t know how many countries more. But I found it and it was the best experience that I’ve had until this moment.

— Forget about marriage! Being married it’s a different kind of experience. It has it’s own universe around it. I won’t talk about that know, but let me assure you that marriage just leveled up my life like a ton of levels. More on that on another time.

What now? I just lost my family.

I started to focus on my job, that kept me away from my thoughts and bitterness for being on the country that saw me born and grew, but ultimately the country that I didn’t wanted to go back to. It’s a nice country with a lot of nice places to live and visit; delicious food that you cannot stop eating and so many people with different stories and points of view about life: it’s truly an amazing country. But one that I didn’t wanted to go back.

So here I am. Doing something that I don’t understand yet, stepping down from developing to testing (for me is a step down).

But you know what? I always wanted this! Changes, changes.

I finally had to let go that feeling, that bitterness that was making my life a nightmare and making my wife’s life harder that it already is with her new job. About that… that’s what we wanted, that’s why we started praying and asking God where should we go from Miami.

And that’s what it feels to ask God direction and not keep praying for help. You feel like you lost the most precious thing for you and you keep trying to keep it close to you and it just hurts.

I’ve come to realize how blessed I am. Having the opportunity to get to know so many amazing people, learn from the best and enjoy laughs and lots of ping-pong matches that now made me the guy to beat at the current office.

I have learned to enjoy what God has given to me, every little detail.

And for that I will be always grateful, because He put me in a place with people so warm and cheerful that without knowing it, helped me through one of the hardest moments in my life, and taught me all about hard working, being smarter but always humble, among many other things.

Now I understand that a big part of me stayed there as well as I took a big part of everyone with me, and because of that I cannot say goodbye, I will never will be able to say goodbye to them.

Until next time my friends. I will never forget you, and I will come back just to say Hi.