I felt this way, from 12 to 33, look down, don’t let people see the reality. Aggressive Alpha Males will beat me to pulp, Assertive Alpha Males will scorn me, Beta Males will fight me with words or fists to determine their hierarchy, Alpha females will ignore me, Beta females won’t give me a chance and once the chance is lost, there’s no going back, so make sure the first time you look up is a good one. When you’re at the bottom of the confidence pond, everyone seems to be pooping on you. Once I discovered that this is just the difference between being a confident mature adult, and not, I stood upright, looked people in the eye and realised, they’re probably doing the same thing. All scared little sheep, nothing to do with race/gender/age/sexuality, just confidence.