Thank you for sharing your grief and your journey. Yesterday I went to my son’s grave and left flowers. It was 40 years yesterday. It never heals but you do go on and make a life . The overwhelming sorrow still overtakes me occasionally, and in the shower sometimes. I just wanted to say that I made it through and you will too. Keep sharing your grief, it helps those of us who have lived with it for 40 years remember how far we have come. Sending love and hugs to you across the miles.