i remember from a very young age watching boys and men
trying to emulate their mannerisms
the way they sit, the way they stand
the way they walk and talk
i wanted to exhibit masculinity and be like the boys
how do you become a man without the extra appendage
is that even what i want?
to be a man?
or is the power i feel through masculinity the end goal?
are my feelings of empowerment based on patriarchal views
or am empowered because i feel like my true self
because i feel like i don’t have to hide behind a facade
i don’t have to pretend to be soft when i’m not
there is no weakness in femininity but there is weakness in me