Monkey Mind
#killme
Feeling crappy today. Just insecure and anxious. If you tried to ask me about what, I would not be able to give you a reason, just a string of insecurities that no one should be subjected to. (Spoiler alert I’m about to subject you to them.)
Am I doing the right thing with my life?
Am I with the right person?
Am I signing the right apartment lease?
Am I working on the right business idea? (And right now I don’t even want to do anything.)
Has been like this for a few days.
Don’t answer any texts or calls. Just want to cry all the time and think about my shortcomings.
I have money now. When I did this before, I always used to think “If I had money, everything would be better”
It’s not, it’s the same.
I know I’ll have another burst of energy again soon. But these lows suck. They don’t come often, but when they do, they just really suck.
I feel fat.
I am lonely….
I want to snack and be by myself. Lol.
Is this the life of a digital nomad? “Travels the world and works from anywhere…” that’s me. Not always that glamourous.
I can’t really call myself a failure anymore tbh.
I don’t even really have an excuse for feeling like this. I just feel like it.
I will write a gratitude list and do some meditation and all that stuff.
I always do. When I’ve had enough of sitting and feeling miserable and when I’m ready to get back on the horse.
I’m always fine. I guess this is part of being human — sometimes just staring into the void…
