Ramblings of the Mind
A passionate life, but hard to keep track of the very many connecting flights. An approaching storm. Hail, thunder and snow. I brace myself and face it all. What am I doing?
A soft embrace. Fear of heartbreak. I run my fingers through his hair. Day of dreams, I wish it never ends, please stop the time today. As he begins feeling my plump body, I don’t know why I push him away.
My mind stops working. I run out of words. Why is it so quiet? I am more alive than this, why do I suddenly feel jaded? I am rising and falling hard.
Just with one more embrace, I will tell you all my hopes and dreams, I will come unraveling like the rain. I don’t know how to hold myself in front of you. I will crash into you.
Wild encounter with a mad animal on road. I feel your fear for us. I fall one more foot each minute as we walk through the valley. It’s calm, too calm, no more embrace.
We wake up empty next morning. I love your silent care. Hot flash. Crazy heart. Messy life. Wild heartbeat. One touch.
Guilt. Regret. Yearn. Yet no embrace. Tears fly by. What are we waiting for? I throw up.
Who is he to me? I want to see him one more time, even if it's final. I want a kiss to remember when I'm old. I want to know what those lips taste like.
Please don’t let me go, my heart squeaks a little. The engine is fired. He leaves.
Another engine fires. I take off. "Come back" by Pearl Jam plays in my head, mind plays tricks, plays each moment over and over. I will miss you.
Another connecting flight. Another day, our lives in different cities. Will it be one, ever?
Mind rambles on.