Afraid to Write

I am afraid to write. Well, I’m not exactly afraid to write, but terrified for someone to read what I write.

I point to one of my favorite quotes from the movie Back to the Future as it accurately sums up my feelings:

I mean, what if they say I’m no good. What if they say, “Get out of here, kid, you got no future.” I mean, I just don’t think I can take that kind of rejection.

Why do I feel this way? As human beings we want to be good at things. We need to be good a things. We thrive on the praise that is the wood that fuels the fire of our accomplishments.

When I was in High School I decided to write a novel. I spent hours writing, scrutinizing every word that my fingers typed. Fast-forward almost 20 years and all I’ve ended up with is five incomplete and overthought novels.

Such was my desire for perfection and fear of failure that to this day only one other individual has read so much as a word from any of those novels.

My fear of failing kept me from sharing and improving my writing. I wasted years of my life desiring to be good at a skill that I took no action to improve.

Before we can run we have to learn to walk and we’re bound to fall and get a few scrapes and bruises along the way.

Nobody likes failing, but we all do it. It’s what we do with our failures that define us.

As Henry Ford said,

Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently.

So here’s to my first step.