I’m so sorry for your loss but the essay was profoundly beautiful. I have never lost someone in this way but I can imagine the tragedy of not knowing and the expectation there is more time when we don’t really know when it will all end. He sounded like a very interesting roommate and individual to know. I would like to have known more about how it transformed your life from that point, which twists and turns appeared as a result. Thank you for sharing your story.