Monster Madness

Inside my mind, a war is at large. My monster is angry, and is clawing his way out. It wants to devour whatever I care most about.

I am my chaos. I am my loss. I’ve lost what little

sanity I had at all.

Please listen carefully for this is

future advice.

Don’t distract me, please,

not now.

My insides are angry, chaotic,

and foul.

Dont call my name

or direct my attention elsewhere.

I am focusing

on restraint

and don’t have a second to spare

There’s a monster in me.

It Devours everything i love

I am my problems, I’m my ruin and will be yours too.

Much pain has been caused by me. Obviously, I’m not a spectator, I’m

a poison to humanity

Right now, I

stand before you naked and exposed, I appear weak and helpless, just part of the plan.

But inside,

I’m full of malice, discontent,

and gloom.

Fortunately for you I’m sick, and soon

I’ll be dead in a forgotten tomb.

I am a monster, you just won’t believe.

I hide behind

mood swings, depression and spontaneous rage.

Some call this BiPolar, but

mines not, meds never work, i

belong in a cage.

I hate to say

these things

about myself

but I know

what’s true.

Others have monsters I know

but most

don’t care whether they hurt you.

I focus on restraint of my actions

as an effort to control.

Or people I love get hurt, leaving holes in they’re soul.

I’m a monster,

and,

I WILL

break free.

When this happens,

the carnage

left behind

will be on display

for everyoneyou know to see.

Beware and be advised

I am unstable alot of times.

I will

most likely

break your heart and ruin

your life at least a

100 times.

Run away quick

If you want

To be sane.

Forgive me

if you can,

Forget me

better yet or

I’ll consume you causing horrific pain

You will never forget.

Go, now

I have lost all control and

My rage has no limits.

If I see you

I’ll eat your spine and suck out your soul.

The monster is free and

now I have no control.

The monster has always been me, and I’ve always known.

Isteb Grah