Lost at Sea
Night and day, day and night;
Hope dances like the flashing sun, dipping faster than it can rise.
In and out, out and in;
Life turned upside down, sense lost to the world.
I can’t hold on, I won’t let go -
In this limbo, I waltz to the tune of my turbulence.
Tears fill my heart; my eyes are hard — dry and dead.
Pain is a long friend; a different kind.
Mostly given, rarely taken.
I stand bare, naked in the light of another eye,
Seen as I have seen with averted gaze, blind to plight.
I wait to be frisked away, soul and form — to the future, to the past.
I wait, I wait, I wait; not a sound is heard.
A whizzing brain quells time,
Silence playing in loop, darkness filling the void.
Desolate and forlorn, I strive to fly beyond,
But the wall proves impossible to vault.
Impassive, immobile, irascible –
it insists I stay removed,
existing non-existent, living life like it has passed me by.
I can’t move forward, I won’t go back –
I remain a ship lost at sea; in an open cage, longing to be free.
