. End of an Era

Another semester has passed and I fell like, I’ve learned some new things about myself and what my future is starting to look like.

It’s interesting to see how you influence and support people. I guess I’m happy with the way things are I mean lets be real, I feel like my future is better and that my life is still going strong. These last two semesters have tested me in many ways. First it was the dedication to study and focus on what I needed to get done in order to pass the classes. I look back at when I was 20 and I had started college. I was nervous and excited at the same time. When I was in my first year of college I really didn’t want to focus enough on my work or my dedication. I was more focused on my social life and networks , I was wanting to hangout with friends and not worry about class. Truth be told that that was a huge mistake for me to make. I was behind in all my classes and I was in danger of being put on academic probation.

Well it was simple, my older sister came home for thanksgiving break. She noticed the large amount of Homework on my desk. She immediately came into the living room where I was sitting watch tv. She grabbed me by the shirt and told me to come with her. She asked why I didn’t want to give school one hundred percent. I stupidly replied that I have a social life and that my friends and social media was more important than class. Well you can imagine how that went. She told me that if I didn’t have a passion for my future that I would not have money for anything because she would have our parents stop paying for college and everything else. Then she told me I want you to spend it least rest of the state thinking about your future and what that means to you and tomorrow I want to hear your honest answer. Well I thought about it long and hard. I realized that I needed to draw a line. The next two days I spent doing my homework and assignments with my sister. It’s weird because I spent almost 48 hours doing homework. My motivation basically came from the fact that I know that I need to have a good future and be able to provide for myself. I then Learned that I also needed to learn that social media and friends are fine,but there needs to be a line drawn because if you focus on that too much then you wind up losing your future and the motivation to succeed in school. There has to be guidelines to succeed. I learned that when I’m at school I’m focused on class and taking in what the lecture is on. The second thing is that when I’m at work I need to be focused on the job I’m doing and being able to work well. Finally I was able to draw a line for friends, social media and parties. When I was in class or at work they were put on hold till I finished homework and studying, learning to say no was hard but it helped my draw a line so that they knew that I needed to put my future first.


The other thing I learned was what it means to be a true friend. I’ve made several friends in the last 9 months and I’ve gotten close to afew of them. I guess the first thing I learned is that you have to be able to always support person even when they screw up for you just want to yell at them. The second thing is that you have to be able to show that you care and love them no matter what happens in a matter what comes their way and that you will always support them when they need most. I will say that without a doubt I will do anything for the people who I’m close to because that’s what you do that is the definition of love. It means that the matter what that person does or how much they hurt you stand beside them through thick and thin.

Lastly I learned that I rejection is part of life. It’s really upsetting to see how shallow people are. I’m going to test a theory and if it works I’m going to be proven right again. I mean rejection hurts but sometimes when you’re here that it’s about the body or your looks sometimes that just kind of hurts and makes you feel like you are just not good for anyone. I guess people need to learn to except someone for who they are I mean even if that person is short or fat or their personality is just weird people need to learn to except someone for who they are. It’s just really hard sometimes to even want to talk to a girl because you feel like you’re not in their league when you feel like they’re not going to give you the time of day. I guess what I’ve learned through all this is that there are some things I need to improve on but I need to learn that rejection is just part of life and you know I’ve had my fair share of break ups and heart aches and Hell, even rejections. But the one thing that I’m happy with is that I have people who are going to stand by me no matter what I do and support me. I also have people who except me for who I am and I love them to death. So I guess says I closeouts this chapter I’m happy with the way things are going and I would not change it for the world.