Startup diary 1: My co-founder had a breakdown.

Day 1 is the day I started this diary by the way.

It’s been almost a year since we decided to do a SaaS startup. I guess we were lucky so far to have some supports from our friends, former boss, and some strangers (who have become our “parters” in co-developing the product).

  • July 2016: quit my job. When I told my boss that I wanted to do a startup, he was shocked but still tried to be polite. After a few days, my team leader announced my leaving. (My co-founder was my colleague, he still gonna work there for 2 days a week)
  • July-September 2016: moved to a cheaper apartment, setup product development plan, started to work on MVP, looked for potential test users, and spent some time with the families in summer.
  • October 2016: created a MVP for our pitch, dressed like a human to meet with W at his glass-wall-corner-office. W was impressed (at least looked like) and even mentioned about the possibility to provide us fundings. (however we still haven’t seen the cash so far)
Our first appointment with W was like this.
  • November 2016: updated a MVP, met again with W and his brother, J (auditor) who took the role to helped us setup a formal company (BV).
  • December 2016 — April 2017: continuously developing the product and met with W every 3 weeks. On the side, we worked at some freelancer jobs so we can buy food and pay the rent. Everyday was more or less the same, work, improve, work and improve.

Yesterday, my co-founder finally had a breakdown.

My co-founder was screaming for plan.
“ I need a plan!! I need to know what to do next. I think people are not really taking us seriously, are people gonna buy this product?? I really don’t know if this is gonna work.”

I was not sure if I was handing this properly by responding this:

“Well, of course people are not taking us seriously. Before we prove our value, we are basically a piece of shit. Have you seen people taking a piece of shit seriously?”

Soon I realised that my co-founder wasn’t really looking for a (convincing) plan, he was simply express his anxiety in not knowing whether or not we will eventually make it there. He told me that every time when he saw me looked relaxed in an urgent situation, it really pissed him off by not knowing if I had a (sort of) solution or I was just simply too dumb to see a problem.

Don’t worry, I have a solution, sort of.

Anyway, I guess we just need to deal with it. And here is my plan: get the product done, test it, sell it.