ESSENCE OF A LETTER….MUMMY!!

It somehow sounds old-fashioned when you hear something like this from your mum, “ Son! It’s good that you’re busy>>>> but do you miss us? I mean… I don’t expect you to call..but at least I can expect a letter from you when someone’s returning from the place you've been living for so long…”

#The letter >>>>All that mattered!!

I went to the deepest muteness after a minute call.. I realized that I was being selfish to some extent… I shouldn't have let her feel so bad and lost….

#Bad son!! I YELLED!!

Driven by the greed>>> Focused to my sole needs>>> led me nowhere except for the realization of the bitter truth>>>> I wasn't acting like the son she dreamed of.

“Mum!! I know I've turned out so cold lately… But I don’t want you to feel bad simply because I got deviated for some reasons.. Your son loves you more than you will ever know!!” I felt like saying this in her presence…..#UNFULFILLED.

I stared at the clock.It’s half past 12 AM already….And I’m not sure where all’o my sleep’s headed to….

I sloped my body to give it a comfort….#calm and steady>>> #bewildered by the same question again..>>>

I was so stupid. I got up furiously… and reminded myself that it’s not too late… I never anticipated hearing THIS from her…. #CONSCIOUSNESS…..

I turned on the light and yes.. I sat down and decided to write something.Thank god, tech has proven out to be a great support for I don’t need to travel all the way to my hometown to drop her a letter…. #smile :)

Dear Mummy,

By the grace of god your son’s doing absolutely fine. I hope I’m not too late to let you know that YOUR SON MISSES YOU TOO.. I expect you to be healthy as you always were. By the way you really look gorgeous with that pretty smile on your face.. Don’t let it fade away.. PLEASE!! It’s something that your son can’t giveaway ….

I admit I've made you feel so low throughout this time.. and I’m really sorry mama.. I never thought that I would lose my grip over you.. Sorry!! :) I know from the deepest core of my heart that you’ll forgive me for acting like a knuckle head….. I AM STILL YOUR LITTLE SON, RIGHT? :)

Funny thing is>>> I still can remember pretty little incidents when you acted like a REAL HERO when I was nobody but a little chubby son of yours…You were always there when i needed you the most…you constantly stood for your son’s protection ignoring all the mistakes he made… You brawled with the strangers when your son was the sole cause of their trouble.. There was not even a single day when you would miss bringing US candies on your way back to the home.. I can never imagine of>> opting you out of this or upcoming birth that I will take… You made me believe that I wasn't born to settle out for ordinary things.. You let me live my dream.. You fulfilled all’o my wishes without any hesitation…You’re the reason why I am here today… Mum, without you.. YOUR SON IS NOTHING.. I ALWAYS WISHED TO BE YOUR REFLECTION… YOU’RE THE REASON WHY I BELIEVED IN MIRACLES…

I LOVE YOU WITH ALL THE MIGHT…AND I swear>>> I won’t let you find any spaces to regret from this time around.. I don’t wanna be a big man.. I JUST WANT TO BE YOUR SON YOU’VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF… Spare me for MY STUPIDITY .. I LOVE YOU.. AND YES.. I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH….I miss all the homies….Pass my best regards to chotuzz, didizz..and Paa….Now, Get ready with your magical food recipes…. YOUR SON IS COMING HOME SOON….I am dying to eat all’o them… hehe

YOUR SON,

SHRESTHA BISHOW

#NEVER FORGET!!

“A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts.”― Washington Irving