I feel as though I only ever come here to write when I’m feeling negative. It’s as though I only feel creative when I’m desperately looking for an escape from my reality. Over the last few years, I have realised how severely I struggle to focus and stick to a task. I am so easily distracted, and so easily knocked off track. I spiral out of control…

Time escapes me. The majority of my time is spent worrying about work that I need to do, whilst procrastinating religiously. I have fallen behind in most of my modules at university, and I feel as though my head is a blur. I have no true structure in my life, and lack the discipline to create it.

Throughout my life so far, I have always been considered by others to have real academic potential. Ever since primary school, where I achieved full marks in my maths SATs exam at 10 years old, it has always been expected that I would go on to be a high-flier and pursue an academic…

I often find myself comparing my life to the lives of others, whether it is people in films, games, books or even real life. I envy story characters, historical figures, musicians and other ordinary people. It’s all too easy to feel as though others seem much more interesting…

Dear reader,

Life is hard, but I feel as though mine is not nearly difficult enough for me to complain about it. I’m very aware of my 1st world privileges, though I still struggle to find a sense of fulfilment and meaning in my everyday life, and the self-recognition of my good luck at…