7th week - I’m tired.

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It’s almost the end of 7th week, already? wow.
To be honest, i don’t know anymore… i mean look at my life, it’s all messed up, wanna know why? it’s because i messed it up.

I wish there was an ‘reset’ button in real life, so that i can start up again.
So i can correct the things i’ve done wrong. Sometimes i always ask myself if it’s all my fault or is it the people around me.

Their tiger-like eyes that were maliciously looking at me like i am their prey.
But in reality they were judging me with those eyes that i cannot forget.
Judging me on the outside, they don’t even try to see who i truly am.

…Did i just messed my own life? yes. My whole week is terrible, i missed alot of quizzes, seatworks and i even missed important topics in my subjects. Everyone would say “It’s because it’s your fault for not attending class, maybe your just faking your illness so you couldn’t go to school.” and “Whatever. y’know what Frances? if i have an illness like yours i can go to school because i have determination, unlike you, who easily gives up at everything coz your weak.”

How many times should i have to say that IT’S NOT THAT EASY.
You don’t even experienced that kind of illness so how should you know? Sometimes you just need to break that big pride of yours. Trying to impress everyone.

By the way the doctor said that i should just rest because i have an…
Nope. i can’t tell you that.

I always see myself as the weak, sore-loser,loner, and dumb person. I just need to rest for awhile. I am tired mentally and physically.
And just a reminder, your not a god or a goddess, you are a human. So you don’t have the right to judge every person.

But whatever, i’ll just pray for your damned soul. 
Your welcome.

(Finished in 08/07/2016 at 9:00 pm)