Ten Years From Now
There have been several instances throughout my life where I have just taken a second to think about how much everything has changed in such a short amount of time. This seems to be occurring more often now that I’m getting older and more aware of what is going on around me. I can sit here and think back to how different I was when I started college at 18 years old. It doesn’t seem like four years would make that much of a difference considering that’s just a small portion of the grand scheme of my entire life. However, it seems like every second counts these days. Every decision has a ripple effect on the rest of my life. It’s amazing and terrifying all at once.
I’m currently 22 years old and I like to think that I have an idea about what I want in life and have a pretty grasp on the kind of person I am. Who knows though. Either way, if I look back 10 years I see myself as a child who had no idea about how big the world really is or how becoming a teenager would be one of my most awkward stages in life. It was a time in my life when I wanted so badly to be someone else, I wanted to be someone who was older and cooler and prettier. It was a time when everything was such a big deal even when it really wasn’t.
If I were to fast forward 10 years from the present I see myself being 32 years old, but that’s as far as it goes. I cannot tell you about the type of job I have or whether I’m married or not. I don’t know where I live or if I have a dog (hopefully I do). All I can really say about myself in the future is that I am going to have moments when I look back on my life and realize I fucked up quite a bit, but I will still be able to smile just like it all happened yesterday. I refuse to believe I will be the person who reminisces about the past and thinks I wish I would have known then what I know now. Life is all about learning as you go. It definitely would not be so amazing if things always went smoothly.
Like I said, I’ve fucked up plenty of times in the last 22 years of my life. I have been boy-crazed, I have drank myself into oblivion several times, I have said hurtful things that ruined my relationship with people. The list is endless and there are plenty of cringe-worthy moments that I can think of right now, some of them include things I did just a week ago. They are not my proudest moments but they are the moments that make my life so terrific to me. The moments in life that knock you on your ass are the moments you will remember forever. They are the moments that define you as a person and they push you to your limits.
The point of all of this is to say that I do not ever want to have a time in my life where I wish I could go back and change something. No matter how good or bad a situation is, it is happening to you because it is supposed to be happening. You are being tested in one way or another. If you’re not making idiotic mistakes then you probably aren’t having enough fun. Besides, what are you going to laugh at later on if you don’t choose to act a fool now? Do what you want to do and deal with the consequences later. Don’t miss a once in a lifetime opportunity just because you’re scared of what others will think. You must always follow your heart.