Wow. Timing really is everything. So much of what you expressed here resonates with me, but especially “inner asshole” and “sadness”. After a huge career by any measure, I’m sputtering along in my work and creative processes and facing financial Armageddon. Not fun and then after drowning my sorrows and fears, I wake up and all the same shi*t is right where I left it! The timing part of this for me, is that after a disastrous New Year’s Eve with my love, I knew it was time to make a change. Yesterday was the first day of a 30 day commitment to abstain. It was easy and my proclamation to my significant other as well as the great evening we had last night will hopefully right my ship and ours. Thanks a lot Andy. I really needed to hear from a kindred spirit this morning. Namaste. Bob