I have been thinking and talking about this for a long time. It is always hard to decide between: 1) influencing from within or 2) leaving all together. I have always felt that if people in the evangelical churches I’ve attended knew what was going on in my head, they wouldn’t want me around.
Interesting coming from someone with a degree from an evangelical seminary.
The truth is, church leaders want what they think is best for people, including me. They would want me in church, hoping I will come around to their viewpoint. Being in leadership myself however, which currently I’m not, would be an entirely different question. In most evangelical settings, I would likely have to suppress my thoughts on a regular basis.
Ironically, I used to think that the average church goer was in my camp. I openly talk about how being LGBQT doesn’t need to be understood as a sin, some noteworthy Christians consider it a blessing. I talk about the guilt trips and obsessive notions of sexual purity. I talk about the systemic sins that we are entangled in as a state and as a church, empire. I discuss the irony that Christianity was a church of the marginalized before it became the church of the empire. Everyone seems to think it is very thought provoking and interesting.
Then you see the 85% vote by white evangelicals for Trump and it forces us to realize.