Social distancing is not easy. It is not fun, and it sucks that we have to do it. It’s depressing, it’s exhausting, it’s lonely. All of our lives are on hold. We do not know what kind of world waits for us on the other side. This is taking a…
In fall of 2012, I was starting to feel a little more comfortable with living on my own for the first time. Just a little. But it was stressful. I didn’t have a job and was living off of financial aid from Northeast Wisconsin Technical College. That’s how I paid…
Last month, North Carolina trad-metal band Children Of The Reptile released Live and Chaotic, a live double-album that collects tracks from all of their studio releases thus far, some new stuff, and a few surprise covers thrown in that show off different dimensions of the band. I talk a lot…
Summer 2012
I first became aware of Derrick during a class “gettin-to-know-ya” go ‘round the room chit chat thing. We were in some sort of filler intro to psychology class at Northeast Wisconsin technical college, in the spring of 2012. Class was going around offering trivia about themselves, and when…
I’m feeling nostalgic, and it’s making me ILL. Nostalgia is for boomers and gen xers and hogs and I’m sorry but trading in it makes you worse than a fascist. I’d sooner die than be nostalgic. If you have ever felt nostalgia in your life, we are enemies. You gotta…
April 11–13, 2020
I took a few days off from writing, because my last entry was kind of heavy and, frankly, being isolated from friends and work and unable to go out is starting to get to me, just a teensy bit. The Sanders campaign is suspended, and frankly I…
END OF THE WORLD MUSIC: Deathrock Revival or, When I Say “End Of The World” I’m Not Being Hyperbolic
content warning: self-harm
April 6–7 2020
It has taken me an embarrassingly long time in my life to realize that when you are eating breakfast cereal, you should pour just enough milk in the bowl to get the cereal moist. You don’t need to pour so much milk in that…
Slept in late again. I really need to stop doing that. It’s gonna fuck up my mood and make this plague-life even more fucked up than it already is. Anyways, I woke up, called the employment services to make sure I’m still doing everything I need to in order to…
March 31, 2020
I woke up this morning at like 7 with a weird creeping fear. I don’t know if it was a fear of getting sick, or of money problems, or wondering when I will be able to work again. But I wanted to share it with someone. Not…
March 30, 2020
Been in quarantine for about 2 weeks now. I hate the term “social distancing”, it makes me think of tumblr bullshit and it is dishonest and feels too cutesy. What is happening right now is mass voluntary quarantine to save lives. I wake up usually between eight…
