What a nice take on this, especially the part about being a cog. It turns that a) you are a cog, b) all the noise HR makes about how valuable you are is precisely in relationship to how well you do at being a cog, and c) the day you stop being a cog you are gone. Once that becomes clear life gets much easier as you realize “I can be a cog anywhere”. I realize that isn’t a Thoreau-level statement but it should be freeing. There is *nothing* about your current cog-ness that cannot be replicated elsewhere, often for better compensation.
Or even better, go do something difficult and wonderful for a while. You can go back to being a cog next year.