I have a microscopic following too, but it doesn’t bother me as much as it did when I first started writing on Medium.

I remember when I published my first article and it got zero views. I was really discouraged and it took me nine days to publish another article, which got 1 Recommend. Even though it was only one, I can still remember how overwhelmed with joy I was to know someone had noticed my writing buried under the tsunami of the top articles written by the best writers. I wanted to feel like that over and over again.

So I continued to publish more articles more frequently, and more rewards came with it.

Sometimes I feel like I’m wasting my time on here and it’s only so long before I have to quit, before I’ve run out of creative ideas. I would also filter the paragraphs that would have strong opinions or anything that would go against the conventional wisdom people loved. I felt like I wasn’t qualified to say these things, like I was an impostor and it would only be a matter of time before I was exposed.

But then I would go back to my earlier writings and look at how little attention they got, and how badly I had wanted to be heard, to improve. After that, it wouldn’t be so difficult to start typing again and hit publish.

I still write today because the me a month ago would’ve still wanted me to. I still write because because creativity is a commitment, not just a simple pastime you can just suddenly stop doing on a whim. I still write because eventually I will gain a huge following with people craving the words I have to say; it just hasn’t found me yet. I still write to set myself free, and because I’ve gotten bored with staying in my comfort zone.

Besides, it’s quite difficult to not rant on screen when you live with a bunch of people whose ideals and beliefs you don’t agree with.

    Bridgette Adu-Wadier

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