I’m feeling so out of place, so
Claustrophobic ,so much like a burden & unwanted & unloved,
& in the way.
They all make me feel like I am
Really stupid and incapable of
Caring for myself much less my 3 boys , one being handicaped.
All while being a single mom.
Not by choice of course, but because my husband loved me
& every other woman in range.
And decided that a job was not
A priority….resulting in me and kids moving in with my mother & niece.
Then , the nephew moves in.
Then another niece & now it’s all 8 of us….in a 2 bedroom apt.
Right smack dab in the middle of one of our shittiest areas of town….hella drug usage & buying an selling…
And tagging most likely by teens. And they walk around here like they are hardcore gangsters-NOT!!
And here? We are the minority…being only a small part of handful of whites.
The rest are all mexicans , the straight from the border kind .
And blacks ..the saggin pants kind.. I absolutely hate it here with a passion … I desperately miss my home & town.
My life I used to have
And I’m not sure at all where to go from here. My family deserves better and most definitely my sons.
I feel like a failure. I feel like I’m a waste of space …and oxgen.
And I just do not have a c
Lue…,as what to do