Chemo vs surgery

I have not blogged in awhile because I got busy and I have been live streaming, but I still want to do both. So I had my double mastectomy on July 19th and to be honest it was definitely not as bad as I thought it would be. I mean don’t get me wrong it is a life altering surgery that at times doesn’t make me feel good about myself. The overall experience of recovering from it was pretty doable. I only had two bad days with pain, but I managed to get through both of them with my husband, mom, and cousin Dean. We did have a slight hiccup and I ended up in the ER and they found two blood clots in my right arm that was most likely caused by my I.V. so now I am on blood thinners. NOW… My first chemo treatment was yesterday and I was extremely nervous so I took a Valium before my appointment. That’s why, if you watch my videos as well, the one I made while getting chemo, I seemed a little loopy. Last night did not go very well, I had “chemo brain” and I felt nauseous and uncomfortable all night Long and didn’t fall asleep until about 6am this morning. If I had to pick which one I would go through again… it would be the surgery. But I guess in reality I’m having a second surgery to have the implants put in. I’m not going to lie it’s getting harder and I feel weaker. I don’t feel #BrookeStrong all the time now. I’m really at the point where one day at a time means everything. I promise I will fight this and come on top because I have way too many supporters counting on me. Since o am now on chemo I have some strict instructions for visitors. If you are sick in any way, you can not come see me 😞 SUCKS!!! But I gotta keep my immune system strong.

#chemolifesucks