It is that way with some moms and dads isn’t it? They tell you, “You can always come to me if you need me,” but then when you do, you’re poo-pooed to death. My mom said I had to learn to see the bright side of things and stop being so negative. But when your spidey senses are tingling and you need to go you’re going to have to go against the grain and protect yourself, do it. Sometimes you have to silently under your breath tell your mother to fu ck off.
One thing my mom, two things my mom did tell me, always stuck with me and that is this:
- Self preservation is the first law of humankind.
- If you don’t want to do something, don’t. Better they be mad than you be mad.
I think all girls should know this. We spend too much time gritting our teeth and being passive about our bodies, our peace of mind, but when we complain, we’re told we’re ungrateful, rude, crazy, ugly anyway (nobody wants you), etc. We grow to be afraid we won’t ever amount to much if we don’t give in. Truth is, they already believe that. Don’t you believe that. Don’t go for it. Walk away. Or fight. Whichever.
I’ve learned this is how predators think (humans being the #1 predator on earth) and this is how they try to break us down because ultimately that is the goal: to destroy. Defend yourself anyway.
You want friends but they say suck my dick, so walk away and get friends that won’t ever say that to you.
You want the role of a lifetime but you’re going to have to put out because all the other actresses did. Know plenty of female and male actors never had to sleep with anyone to get anywhere. Get a better agent. Hell, direct yourself!
Someone wants your attention and they are behaving inappropriately, draw that line. Tell them no. You will be stuck up and everything but a child of God. Good.
You’re tougher than you think and smarter than they think.
You didn’t have a proper defense of your girlhood, your innocence or your autonomy and I am sorry. I’d like to say it will get better, but I am afraid it won’t. You’re not that much younger than I so I won’t lie to you. But I will tell you this: I like the fact you took those boys to court. You sound like a warrior. Go on with your bad self.