an open letter to the boy’s heart i had to break

Bethany Westphal
Jul 25, 2017 · 1 min read

you were a page in my book of life that I don’t want to ever return to.

I, by no means am a hurtful person. I was raised better than that, to always be the bigger person, to always turn the other cheek, and to learn from each experience.

I felt suffocated the entire time we were together. I don’t think it was your fault, I’m just a bird that wasn’t meant to be kept as a pet.

I don’t think I really know what love is-in a relationship aspect. I emptily said the three words back to you over and over and over again like my mom telling me to clean my room when I was a kid, meaningless.

I’m not going to say I’m sorry because I’ve always apologized for things I shouldn’t apologize for-because that’s who I am. I don’t want to apologize for this necessity.

I had to break your heart to free mine. As cold as that sounds, at the end of the day you have to love yourself and I have a long journey ahead of me in learning to love myself.

Bethany Westphal

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musician, coffee-enthusiast, poetry fanatic, lover of kickboxing, vegetarian, full-time student studying jazz and business, obsessed with phantom of the opera.

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