Dear Future Boy,
When I finally find you there are a few things I want you to know.
I like to jump into things feet first and with complete honesty.
I want to be the last thing you think about at night and the first thing you think of in the morning.
I want space.
I want freedom,
I want you to take me out and treat me like a queen.
It’s okay if you don’t call until two days later as long as you call.
I want you to know my family comes first and be okay with and respect it.
I don’t need you to be in love with me unless/until we are ready but don’t treat me like your 2am good time.
Compliment me, not all the time, and not unless you really mean it, but when you think about it say it out loud.
Ask me to dance in the kitchen,take me by the hand and show me the world can stop for a three-minute song and make the whole day better.
Ask me how my day was and listen when I reply.
And know that sometimes I like to be alone.
Have your own life, your own friends, and your own hobbies.
It’s good to not have everything in common.
Don’t be afraid to try new things and always be up for an adventure.
These are the things I hope for.
I know it’s scary to commit to something when you have no idea of the outcome, but you’ll never know until you try.
If one day you decide I’m not enough, that you have given it all you’ve got and our wonderful story is over, I want you to know it’s okay, not everything lasts forever but it doesn’t mean you won’t hold a special place in my heart and I won’t think any less of you.
Make sure you’re a man enough about it at the end and don’t string me along or give me false hope.
I know that not all good things last and it won’t make our time together any less special.
And if we get to a time where you know you want to spend everyday with me for the rest of your life be sure before you ask that question,
because this is me and you are taking me as I am.
Know that when you ask me to take your hand the way you do it is a measure of how much it means to you, not in the grandeur of the gesture but the sentiment behind it, put some thought into it, don’t let it be a story that can’t be told to all our friends and family.
And when we grow old and remember our life together I want us to be able to remember our life and our love story as a never-ending adventure that our kids strive to achieve in their own relationships.
I know it may take a while to find you and I am more than willing to wait for you.
But please don’t take too much longer.
I am trying not to lose hope but sometimes it feels like a losing battle to find you.
I want you to know I’m here and I’m waiting.
You may be wondering what you get out of this.
Why would you push through the fear to see what’s on the other side?
I want you to know my heart is waiting to give you the same attention and affection I desire. Though I have two angels that are my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night, you’ve invaded my dreams, my hopes, and my fears.
I want to stand beside you and be your rock when you need someone strong,
I want to hear about your day and your thoughts on the universe.
I want to be your cheerleader, your partner, and your nurse when needed.
For you I will weather whatever storm may come as long as I know you will do the same for me.
I know this all seem a little scary but whenever your ready just take my hand and we will make the jump together and see where it goes.