Realizing this is a step closer to understanding what it is like to be like a child. It also makes me look at people who are more simple minded a lot differently. I am no longer a superior intellectual who gets it, because my ideas always stay ideas. For me, “denying myself” means releasing my need for comprehensive understanding. I think it is the only way I will receive the life changing belief you talk about. I still struggle with this mightily. I know the light and the peace and the joy, but my daily life rarely reflects it. We who have this intellectual understanding have a truly heavy burden to relinquish before we can truly know ‘God’.